Lately, I've been lamenting the fact that I'm not the type of person I want to hang out with. It's been so tiring having to wrestle with myself, playing that never-ending tug o'war between good and evil. It's almost gotten to the point where I've justified the snarkyness and negativity in my mind. That I was truly opening up myself to the dark side (I had to do this - the new Star Wars trailer just came out).
Then I see this on the very day, THE EXACT SAME DAY that I've (almost) accepted that I won't ever be the person I want to be.
April 18th, 2015 at 2:52PM
asker30seasons asked: Dear Neil, I am a horrible person. How to be kinder, please?
Sometimes I suspect we are all horrible people. Or at least, we are human people. Same thing. We are impatient, judgmental, irritating and irritated, grumpy, easily offended and the rest of it.
So how to be kinder if it doesn’t come naturally?
Fake it.
Fake it a little bit at a time.
Because there isn’t actually any difference between doing something nice for someone because you are naturally saintly and perfect, and doing something nice for someone because you are secretly demonic and trying to cover it up. It’s still an act of kindness either way, and you still made their lives better.
Smile at people. Say hullo. Ask about their lives. Remember what they’ve told you about their lives. Do small things to try and help them. (They will not know you are horrible, do not worry. They will just perceive that you are helping.)
Give people the benefit of the doubt. Remember that it’s more often stupidity to blame than evil, that everyone can screw up (including you) and what’s important is learning from that.
Think “What would an actually kind person do now?” – and do that. Don’t beat yourself up when you fail. Just be as kind to yourself as you will be to others – even if you have to fake that.
And good luck.
You sometimes wonder if the Universe hears your silent pleas of help. Now, I believe it does, and replies at the best possible moment, with the best possible message, using the best possible messenger.
Thank you, NG.